Static
Disturbance
Static
Disturbance

Why so circular?

We are children
Crawling through a dark place
Searching desperately for some light
We find a ray from time to time
Some gaze, mesmerized by its beauty
Sometimes illusion
At times reality
Those who latch on
To that one piercing of light
Believe it is the only one
Others press on
Looking for a ray
Or many
That match our chemistry
Some never find
Others find an abundance
But through this journey
We can never be certain
That one or all are real
Or illusion
Yet some latch
And try to coax others to join
Basking in their own light
Possessing it
As if light could be caught
And if the ray vanishes
They are lost
And desperately start the search
Again
This time,
Knowing
That time
Is fleeting
Is there an end
To the journey?
Or does it continue
For eternity?

Between perception and reality
The chasm is wide, and narrow
Paradox
But not
Confusing
But not.

It's the method of learning
Different nature than formal education
But the same method nonetheless
Absorbtion
And release
If that's what you wish.

It's the churning of being
Turning
Twisting
Into a straight line.

It's not difficult
Unless you wish it to be
That's the trick
In a world of tricksters
It's being one
In a world of ones.

There are no nones
For we all emit
Some light
Some dark
And many shades in between.

But it's not even that simple, is it?
Yet, it really is
That simple
If you wish it to be.

What we know
Is only now
What we see
Is only what we wish to see
Yet, there is more than this
For reality exists
Whether we wish it to exist or not.

And reality is a full spectrum of light
And darkness.
It is all ecompassing
Yet we still choose which aspects of it
We wish to see.

That's the paradox.

The question:
Is it possible to see beyond our perception?

Tidal ebb
I am covered in dirt
Recently unearthed
By the flood

Wax and wane
Lunar phase
Shifts my body's
Blood

A cycle of absorbtion
A cycle of release
Each wave
A microcosm

I resist the crash
The overbearing power
That scatters particles into chaos
The forced thrust
Which breaks the pattern
Dilutes the sequence
Suddenly unclear
Watery sight
Confusion
Fear

Rather, I release into the natural

rhythm Of these waves
Ebb and flood
These lunar shifts
Wax and wane
This life
Perpetual motion of being

A taste
Sweet and sour
Passion red
Moisture stains my lips
Trickles down my throat
I revel
The taste
The texture
Aromas
Blissful sampling
Smooth and sticky

Caught in my throat
I swallow it down
Heavy in my belly
Light in my head
Lips yearn for more
Sticky
Sweet
Sour
Passion red

Heaven is here on earth

We are so much
The same
And not the same
Beautiful differences
One mind
Seperated by space

Crave the distance
Desolation
Time to linger
On words
Long since spoken

Souls filled
With unique light
Which reaches beyond
Corporal boundaries

Vaporized light
Dissipates into air
Still visible
To the curious eye
Invisible
To the yearning eye

You cannot hold this down
Or in
It is fleeting
Yet steady
Dancing molecules
Playing with your sight

No cages
Or boundaries
To hold it in
So don't attempt
To keep this now
For tomorrow surely
Will arrive

And maybe the light will have faded
Maybe it will have brightened
Not your choice
Or mine

So let it fly
Free and clear
Observe with delight
No fear
Just wonder
At its presence

Echoes of burning
Light flashes
Colors curling

sensual beginning
sensual continuation
fingers tremble
at the touch of light
and darkness

wispy trails
carry me home
so it seems
scents unfettered
senses unburdened
light and dark mingling

trails of smoke
flutters of passion
sex and ideas
meld into one
fantasy and reality

where are you
who are you
who am i
do you know?
so we grow
stronger and weaker

dissipate and solidify
traces of madness
courage fleeting
strength seeping
into every crack
every scar

duality of loving
duality of lusting
duality of wanting
duality of needing
duality of being

complex
divine
sorcerer
mine
not mine
not yours

hide yourself
until the time
to reveal
the truth within
the mask unveiled
fear no more

for i love this darkness
and this light
i see in you
so enticing
so revealing
so frightening

checking myself
i will not fight
will not take flight
but flow in the moment
for each one is
more beautiful than the last

let there be no end
to the glory
the sanity
the madness
the duality
the infatuation
the grace
the tenderness
the exciting promise of a future still unknown

I took this for what it is
Darkness and some light
Dynamic
Swirling emotions
Dizzying thoughts
Old ways relinquished
In favor of new experiences

I take this for everything it is
Accepting what I would not have
Years ago
Complicating life
Beautiful complexity
Downward spiral
Closer to god

Bodies entangled
More than desire
Infatuation
Yearning
Taking in
Releasing

The shift is swift
Carries me away
Who I was
Is no more
Sadness for the loss
Joy for the gain
In transition
Waiting to see where this wave
Will take me next

Dangerous liaison
Feel so alive
Risk is great
Gain is greater

Sinking lower than the floor of the ocean
How much lower can I be?
So much I imagine
And so much I don't
New and beautiful world
Full of dark patches
Ready to explore
What I hid before

Can this be real
Or is it just experimentation?
I don't know yet
I will wait to see where this leads me

still still still
I feel the night crawling on my skin
small sounds sink in
small hand holding
all this is
and what it is not